Seriousness ~ A Touch on Domestic Violence

I know I mentioned this briefly on the "In All Seriousness" page and said I'd blog about it later.  It's not later, so I'm just touching on this subject with a triggered by the moment poem.  I will tell you, many of you may not realize that the turn of events that led me to extricate from my relationship happened very recently.  Mid-October to be exact.  The raw emotions and incidents I have been dealing with in real life have been expressed quite close to real time in relation to some of what I blog.

The inception of this blog was only a couple of weeks after 'shit went down'. Another turn of events this afternoon, pertaining to the relationship, caused a rush of emotions.  I went from anger and disbelief to sadness then annoyance. I let these emotions wash over me most of the evening.  Allowing myself to be angry, cry, think and express.  The below poem is what came of it.  I've found writing, expressing and just being me, has allowed me to slowly heal as well as regain who I was from over a decade ago.

Power is Mine

Fell in love, youthful lust

One loved with a twisted heart

The other loved with an open heart

Beneath the surface the love was warped and unrefined

Wed despite conflict

Possessiveness and jealousy fueled

Rage and anger peaked then subsided

Hidden from prying eyes

Eyes tell lies

Fear lives deep inside

Tears held back

Always falls when forsaken

Stop the crying and hurt

Things get better, seem serene

A vicious cycle

In twelve years time

Life feels numb

No control, only time

Make a stand, but prepare

The challenge has just begun

Courageous, bold, steadfast and tenacious

Your efforts are ineffectual

Unnerved no more

You have no power over me.

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Abuse Defined

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'It's up to us to choose whether we win or lose

And I choose to win'

Mary J. Blige

If you're interested, there is a kick ass article on thegoodmenproject.com related to Domestic Violence.  I read this a few months ago and it reminded me quite a bit of my relationship (since I was still in it at the time of reading).

If you didn't believe that you all (Tweeps on Twitter and my blog readers) have truly been my life jacket, I hope you believe this now.  Thank you for staying with me (following me!) on my journey of finding myself, laughing and loving life again.