Erotica Snippet ~ Happy New Year!

‘It’s late, sexy man.’ Says a sultry voice at the doorway.

You grin, knowing it’s me, up to one of my little games.  You slowly swivel your man cave office chair to face me.  You inwardly whimper with excitement.  Standing at the doorway in shiny black stilettos and an ensemble you have not seen before, you stare at the vixen in front of you in awe.  You think, good god what have I done to deserve HER.  HOLY SHIT.  Your cock is thinking the same thing as he rises to the occasion.

I’m wearing a royal purple satin ribbon, tied daintily around my neck. The corset color matches the bow with black, lace trim.  The stockings are fun and flirty complete with the suspender belt/garter.  I think, that’s right, YOU … are MINE, oh sexy lover … I will have you tonight.

“It’s time for bed, Andy.  I NEED you to wrap up NOW.  Meet me there.” I purr.  I turn slowly and walk out of sight.

As I turn to walk away, you see the backside of my outfit: purple satin ribbon crisscrossing my caramel colored back.  Peeking through my slightly closed hand, are anal beads. I hold the ring and let the beads drop and dangle just as I am out of sight. Like the devil, you wrap up your work, shut down your laptop and scurry to the bedroom.


As you near, you hear Mac Miller's Objects in the Mirror playing softly.  Turning the corner into the room you see me dancing, with my back facing you.  You watch me dance to the beat swaying and gyrating my hips, my raven hair wisps in opposing direction.  I turn slowly, still dancing, my eyes meet yours.  You slink towards me rubbing your cock, smiling coquettishly.  I love when you smile like that...clit twitchy, you are.

You reach out, wrap your strong arm around my waist and spin me to face the other way.  I'm pulled close to you as we spoon standing.  I turn my head to the left and lean back against your chest, exposing my neck to you.  You murmur my name into my neck, smell me and exhale in my ear, arousing my nipples and sex at the same time.  You turn me back around, kiss my cheek then slowly lick my jawline from my chin to my ear...I close my eyes and lip smile as you tell me how fucking sexy I am...bliss, just pure bliss listening to your deep, sexy voice.

I open my eyes and gaze at your beautiful face.  You side smirk and walk backwards pulling me with you to the bed.  Once you've sat, you tell me to lay across your lap like a 'good girl'.  I do as you say with a fiery rage of desire building inside me.  Without warning you spank my ass cheeks and I gasp in surprise, yet I smile wide in sexual euphoria.  I tell you to spank me harder and you do...over and over.  My ass is red, my pussy is wet and you are rock hard...I feel you against my rib.  Your cock throbbed and pulsated each time you spanked me.

You help me up off your lap and gently lift me up as I wrap my legs around your waist.  Carrying me around to the other side of the bed, we lustfully embrace and kiss, letting our tongues violate one another.  Like the gentleman you are, you set me down like a priceless piece of China, delicately and lightly.  The contrast of your actions to your voice tone sparks tingles in my sex when you command me with a hint of a primal growl, to turn over ass up face down.  I do as you say. 

You rim me, making my rear entrance lubed and ready to take my anal beads.  One by one you push each bead into my ass as I enjoy the feeling of every insert, each more than the previously placed bead.  Once they're all in, you tell me to get my toy and lay in the middle of the bed with my head near the headboard, no pillow.  I do as you say.  You crawl up over me, position yourself above me, placing your knees on each side of my head so your cock is hovering above my face.  I smile looking up at you as I spread my legs and vibe my clit as I lean up and take your hard cock in my mouth.  You grab onto the headboard and tilt your head back reveling in the feel of my mouth doing wondrous things to your rock, hard cock.

I love the sight of your chest and arms, flexing each time I massage your tip with my throat.  You look down at me, in rapture, the way I'm sucking you off is deeply moving yet sensually charged, so much emotion is evident in my eyes.  We get each other intellectually, we feel each other on a higher emotional level; it heightens our physical attraction and creates audacious sexual desires.

My clit is reaching engorgement and my climax is on the rise.  The closer I get, the more intense my sucking becomes.  Your moans fuel my auditory senses, your pre-cum teases my taste buds, my sex is aching for you to be inside me.  You know this to be soon and gently ease away from me.  I watch you push away from the headboard, your biceps flex and make me melt. 

Backing up you prepare to penetrate me as I continue to pleasure myself, my clit.  Lifting both legs and pushing them back and down at the backside of my thighs, my knees are to my ears, and you enter my sex mercilessly.  I inhale and gasp in sheer painful pleasure arching my back and calling out your name in ecstasy.  You thrust skillfully and consistently, knowing how I like it, knowing how far in you should go as I pleasure my clit at the same time.

It's close, oh, so close...you hear it in my moans, and the drawing in of quick breaths every time you thrust in...as I reach my climax, my pussy pulsates and rhythmically massages your cock as I squeal in delight with positive affirmations and praising of some supreme being.  You reach around and pull the beads out, one...by...one...causing my orgasm to crest each time a bead pops out, driving me wild.

In a haze of post orgasmic pleasure, I grab my breasts and hold on as the Mighty 'O' roller coaster ride collides with what I now realize is your jackhammering.  In a matter of minutes, your pulverizing pounding, makes you cum explosively and vocally. Your gruff and pleased outcries of passion make my nipples harder.  I watch you thrust one last time and hear a barely audible whimper as you collapse onto me and envelope me in your arms.  You bury your face in my neck...we smell of sex, hopes and dreams for the new year.

Happy New Year to all my Toasted Cummies, Tweeps,

Blog Readers...my cyber friends.  Love you all.

Stay safe and LET'S GET THIS PARTY STARTED biznitches!!!!

*Opens bottle of wine*

Corset pictures courtesy of http://www.corset-story.com/

Anal beads picture courtesy of my collection.

Music ~ Mele Kalikimaka

I do indeed miss home, Hawaii, a lot.  Florida provides the weather similar to, but that's about it.  I wanted to share a few holiday songs we listened to growing up in Hawaii.  Mele Kalikimaka my friends.

We used to sing this song in elementary school...

Frank Delima is a beloved comedian in Hawaii.  I remember his visit to our elementary school to this day... (He even references my hometown, 'Ewa Beach', in this classic comedic song.)

Willie K was raised on Maui (where Crazy and my maternal grandparents are from).  He is a well known and loved musician in Hawaii. His version of O Holy Night I just love.  I hope you enjoy it as well.

Loyal Garner was another Hawaiian musician I heard Hawaiian Christmas songs from growing up.  She passed in 2001 from colon cancer.  She was much loved.  (My favorite song from her, which I first heard as a young child, not holiday related, is 'Shave Ice'.  Don't know what Shave Ice is? Matsumoto's is the place to learn.)

Greensleeves (Ukulele Solo)

Not music related...

Surfers love the waves around Christmas time...

Have a safe and happy holiday from TCA and Crazy!

Funsies ~ 2-Minute Word Spew

The '5-Minute Word Spew' has been amended to the '2-Minute Word Spew'. My brain seems to wander and get bored after around the two and a half minute mark.

In two minutes time, I'll just let my mind spew words, like word association almost.  Whatever comes to mind I'm listing.  Ready, go!

Christmas

Wine

Booze

Laugh

Drink

Tweet

Presents

Dildo

Wiener

Appetizer

Party

Laugh

Wink

Kiss

Mistletoe

Miracle on 34^th Street

Ride

Cold

Warm

Snuggle

Entwined

Dinner

Candles

Bath

New Year

Midnight

New Hope

Love

Dream

World

Travel

Japan

Ireland

Brazil

Mexico

Corona

Summer

Sun

Pool

Beach

Tan

G-string

Nude

Patriots

Sand

Fly

Seriousness ~ 'Tis The Season to Give Back

'Tis the season to be jolly...fa la la la la la la la la ...

No seriously.  Jolly is good.  I haven't exactly enjoyed holidays in recent years as much as I would have liked, but that's neither here nor there.  This post is not one where I ramble on about religion or cultural aspects of the holidays, nor will I complain about the commercialism our society has now embedded into many of us. I want to focus on one thing I truly believe, it should be the season of giving.  When I say giving, I don't mean give material things.  I mean 'giving' used hyperbolically to express how greatly one wants to have or do something.

I am a 'giver', rather than a 'receiver'.  (Focus people - not erotica snippets here, seriousness...for now.)  I truly enjoy giving what I can, when I can to causes I believe in.  As I expressed before, neuroblastoma and domestic violence are two things that I choose to support finding a cure to or being against, respectively.

Throughout the year, if I find I cannot give, I make it a point to ensure during the holiday season I do indeed give then.  Our lives tend to be busy and we have commitments to family, careers, volunteering or social life.  It is what it is.  However, during the holiday season, instead of thinking about what unimportant materialistic gadgets or fashion item you're going to get so-and-so or who-see-futs, think about who or what you can help by giving whether it be monetary, volunteering or support by educating - as I am right now.

I gave earlier this year to a neuroblastoma cause.  You can too, and not just neuroblastoma specifically.  Any all encompassing pediatric/children cancer foundation (or any type of organization of your choice for that matter) would love your support should you 'feel' you would like to donate to.  Below are several suggestions to start you with if you're interested in supporting neuroblastoma/pediatric cancer organizations - and not just in the US.


Donate to Children's Neuroblastoma Cancer Foundation

Donate to The Ronan Thompson Foundation

Donate to St. Jude Children's Research Hospital

Donate to CureSearch

Donate to Childhood Cancer Canada Foundation


Donate to The Neuroblastoma Society (UK)

Donate to Neuroblastoma Australia

Donate to World Child Cancer

List of Childhood Cancer Interest Groups



Domestic Violence supporting is obviously new to me, however, just as important nonetheless.  In 2014, I plan to seek out an event to participate in - this will be my 'giving' back to this cause.  In the meantime, as organizations listed in the "In All Seriousness" page, below are the donation pages of those organizations:

Donate to National Coalition Against Domestic Violence

Donate to The National Domestic Violence Hotline

Donate to National Network to End Domestic Violence

What causes do you support?  'Tis the Season to Give Back.

Then celebrate your holiday!

Music ~ Missing Hawaii

You may or may not know, but Crazy Hawaiian @crazyazz808 on Twitter is my real sister. During a phone conversation this evening, she talked about how much she missed home...Hawaii; we're from the island of Oahu.

I just wanted to share several songs and videos that reminds us of the place we call home, where the majority of our family still reside.

Ua Mau ke Ea o ka ʻĀina i ka Pono

"The life of the land is perpetuated in righteousness".

"Honolulu City Lights"

Keola and Kapono Beamer

"Hawai'i Pono'i"

Hawaii's State Song

"Humuhumunukunukuapua'a"

The Hawaii State Fish

"Tiny Bubbles"

Don Ho

We love Spam.

Pidgin English

"Aloha 'Oe"

"Aloha 'Oe" (Farewell to You), which was composed in 1878 by Queen Lydia Lili'uokalani (1838-1917)

She reigned as queen of Hawai'i from 1891 till 1893.

Clip from Lilo & Stitch (Aloha 'Oe)

"Hi'ilawe (1972) / Aloha 'Oe (Instrumental)"

Gabby Pahinui

"I Miss You My Hawaii"

Na Leo Pilimehana

"Love and Affection"

The Green

**For the Ladies**

Island guys who dance hula...HOT.  If you ever get to live in

Hawaii for any period of time, yes, surfers are hot, but guys

who hula?  Check this out ...

Merrie Monarch Festival

(Notable parts of video: 5:13 & 5:32)

Click here for another pretty interesting male hula dancers video.

(I couldn't get the video to embed. Notable parts of video: 2:56 & 3:30- 3:45.  You're welcome.)

Erotica Snippet ~ 69

We're getting ready for bed.  I'm ahead of you already settling into my spot on the bed.  You finish up your pre-bedtime routine and minutes later make your way to bed.  I lay naked and smirking in the middle of bed.

'Let's 69, baby....’ I say to you barely biting my bottom lip.

Standing at the foot of the bed, you smile a devilish smirk.  Your dick twitches at my comment and quickly responds growing to full capacity in anticipation.  You slide out of your trunks and crawl towards me.  My heart races, as I watch you prowl forward.  As you get closer, I slowly scoot myself down, at the same time hastily swatting pillows aside to make room around my head area for your legs.

You push my legs apart and look at my pussy with greedy eyes.  Without warning you target my clit with your mouth causing me to gasp delightfully in surprise.  It feels like you thought to yourself, 'this clit is mine; I'm taking it and giving no mercy'.  Sucking and tonguing it as you grab around my thighs and press into me.  It feels so fucking' good...you play with my sex lips with two fingers, tickling the inner lips and teasing my libido.  You lift your head up and reach your two fingers to my mouth.  Taking your fingers into my mouth, I suck it as if it were your dick, wetting it up knowing what you want to do with it.

With your fingers wet, you tickle the insides of my sex lips, and then thrust your fingers deep inside my pussy making me murmur a groan as my back crescents.  I suck in air and exhale a pleasured whimper, grabbing my breasts as you expertly finger fuck me, watching my body respond to your touch and motion.  All the while you've been stroking that strong, throbbing dick of yours, getting it ready for my mouth.

Pulling out your fingers, you get in position for our 69 session by crawling up over me, but stopping to kiss me passionately and sensually.  Our tongues are lashing each other and I taste myself, making me aroused more and wanting you to taste me again.  I'm running my hands through the hair at the back of your head and down your taut and sexy back.  I grab your ass and squeeze in rapture.  I rake my nails back up to your shoulders as you pull away to look at me, gazing into my eyes.  We smile at each other.

You softly say, 'I want to taste you again, Lenore.'

I respond by softly trailing my nails slowly down to your lower back as I say in return,

'I want to suck and swallow your essence, Sir Daneel' stifling a giggle.

You chuckle and play bite my neck, making me laugh and smack your ass.

You back up a bit so you can sit up as you're straddling me; you spin pivot and reposition your legs so you’re now straddling me facing away.  That ass of yours I so truly love is within reach so I grab, rub, and smack it again, oh so hard.  You back up as I guide your knees to get your cum dripping dick in the perfect position.  As soon as it is, I lunge and devour it.  You moan that virile sound driving me crazy which fuels my sucking.  You blow on my clit, and with distinct mastery, flick it several times with your tongue making me squirm causing me to intensify my sucking …

Who doesn’t love 69?  Imagine the finish...oh yes I did, leave you to your imagination.  Have fun rubbin' it out to your created ending... I know I'm about to... #soloecstasy ;)

Emotional Wave ~ Get a Grip TCA. Just ROAR!

We must not allow the demons of life to drag us to the depths of Tartarus.  I’ve been grabbed a hold of countless times throughout life.  I’ve been dragged feet first, swiftly and forcibly to the edge with a fierce death grip, making me dangle from my fingertips at the rocky edge.

My fingers are bleeding, I’m clutching with fear that I’ll lose myself if I give up and let go.  I look down below and see a chasm of nothingness, bringing me chills of doom and defeat.  My damaged heart weeps and struggles to continue beating as my inner strength tries so hard to fuel my mind to ‘change the nihilism channel’ that it’s fixated on.  My soul needs a renewed surge of energy, a feeding frenzy of positive vibes.

Through the inner turmoil and commotion, I stop and listen for a split second.  What is that I hear?  I hear cheering and clapping in the distance.  I feel warmth and see light.  Prying my sights from the chasm below, I focus my view up and away.  The light is soft and sincere, casting shadows of hope and silhouettes of support.  There’s laughter, joking, smiling, sounds of glasses clinking.  I feel them.  I hear them.

My family and friends are all here, both real and virtual; they toss me a rope that I seize with a hunger.  I muster my strength as they anchor with love; I pull my dangling, pitiful self up and back to my feet.  My inner self may be scratched, bruised and bleeding, but I’m alive.  I’m healthy physically and mentally.

I am a survivor.  I am a warrior.

With all these people behind me ... I’m coming for YOU.  Roar!

'You held me down, but I got up

Get ready 'cause I had enough

I see it all, I see it now'

-Katy Perry

Seriousness ~ A Touch on Domestic Violence

I know I mentioned this briefly on the "In All Seriousness" page and said I'd blog about it later.  It's not later, so I'm just touching on this subject with a triggered by the moment poem.  I will tell you, many of you may not realize that the turn of events that led me to extricate from my relationship happened very recently.  Mid-October to be exact.  The raw emotions and incidents I have been dealing with in real life have been expressed quite close to real time in relation to some of what I blog.

The inception of this blog was only a couple of weeks after 'shit went down'. Another turn of events this afternoon, pertaining to the relationship, caused a rush of emotions.  I went from anger and disbelief to sadness then annoyance. I let these emotions wash over me most of the evening.  Allowing myself to be angry, cry, think and express.  The below poem is what came of it.  I've found writing, expressing and just being me, has allowed me to slowly heal as well as regain who I was from over a decade ago.

Power is Mine

Fell in love, youthful lust

One loved with a twisted heart

The other loved with an open heart

Beneath the surface the love was warped and unrefined

Wed despite conflict

Possessiveness and jealousy fueled

Rage and anger peaked then subsided

Hidden from prying eyes

Eyes tell lies

Fear lives deep inside

Tears held back

Always falls when forsaken

Stop the crying and hurt

Things get better, seem serene

A vicious cycle

In twelve years time

Life feels numb

No control, only time

Make a stand, but prepare

The challenge has just begun

Courageous, bold, steadfast and tenacious

Your efforts are ineffectual

Unnerved no more

You have no power over me.

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Abuse Defined

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'It's up to us to choose whether we win or lose

And I choose to win'

Mary J. Blige

If you're interested, there is a kick ass article on thegoodmenproject.com related to Domestic Violence.  I read this a few months ago and it reminded me quite a bit of my relationship (since I was still in it at the time of reading).

If you didn't believe that you all (Tweeps on Twitter and my blog readers) have truly been my life jacket, I hope you believe this now.  Thank you for staying with me (following me!) on my journey of finding myself, laughing and loving life again.

Erotica Snippet ~ Sex Goddess

Walking back into the bedroom, you stop short to find me walking towards you in your old high school football jersey and those shiny, black stilettos.  Instantly, your dick and surprisingly, nipples, harden.  I'm smiling that devilish smile that tells you I'm up to no good with you.  My head is slightly tilted forward, licking my top lip ever so slightly; I saunter past you only to swing around right behind you.

I reach my hands in front of your sexy body and caress your chest while kissing your back, then biting playfully.  I run my hands down to your throbbing, fully charged dick.  I stroke my dick and whisper to you that I love my dick so hard and ready.

I walk back around to face you and drop to me knees, keeping my eyes trained onto yours.  I gently grab my dick with one hand and your balls in the other and stroke and fondle while still looking into your eyes.  I drop to a sitting on my folded legs position so I can lick and suck on your balls while stroking your shaft.  I kiss your balls tenderly, and then devour them into my mouth.  You inhale sharply and close your eyes tilting your head back as you place your hand behind my head to caress in approval.  I hum my satisfaction of your tasty nuts in my mouth a bit while stroking you.

I straighten myself out and blow gently on your tip, then suck it like my favorite blow pop in the world.  Each time I take you in and pull away, I turn my head a different direction, wetting it up and enjoying every suck.  I occasionally pull off and smack my tongue or cheek while watching you enjoy your baby sucking you off.

I stop abruptly, stand and turn walking towards the bathroom sink.  I stand in front of the sink with my legs spread the width of my shoulders.  You watch me bend over onto the sink while looking at you through the mirror reflection as I mouth to you, 'Come fuck your pussy baby'.

Without hesitation, you stand behind me while I'm getting ready for you to give it to me. I want to feel you inside so bad.  You reach between my legs and rub my clit, making me close my eyes and tilt my head in heady anticipation.  You lift the jersey up past my tattoos so you can look at them.  You take my dick and rub it on my sex lips making me whimper and beg you to put where it belongs.  You place one hand on my tattoos and help push my thick fucking dick into your warm, perfect pussy.  Once the head is in, you slowly push your whole self, deep inside me while listening to me gasp with delight.  Once in at full capacity, I command you to fuck me and fuck me hard and fast.  I want you to ravish me.  I want you to grab the hair at the back of my neck and pound into me making me moan with agonizing pleasure.  You give it to me until you are about to cum; you tell me to get ready and pull out so I can turn around, get down on my knees and stroke you till you cum explosively yet lovingly, all...over...my face and breasts, letting it trickle down my abs.

I stand up and lean against the sink.  As if my body is a cake and your cum is icing, you glide your finger on my body in an upward sweeping motion, lifting cum onto your finger, into my mouth, smiling reverentially at your seductive sex goddess.

Funsies ~ 5-Minute Word Spew

The '5-Minute Word Spew' is something I'm trying out.  In 5 minutes time, I'll just let my mind spew words. Almost kind of like word association, but not, if that makes sense.  Whatever comes to mind I'm listing.  Ready, go!

Long Wednesday
Traffic
Toy store
First kiss
First hug
kissy lips
beautiful smile
pretty brown eyes
Vulcan ears
nibble
hicky
nipples
Inside finally
Ultimate Joy
Magic Finger
Coconut flavor
Five times
False alarm
Pillow partition
Speed bump
Mimi's Cafe
Starbucks
Talking
Office Depot
Love pens!
Ticklish
Shower
Sexy ass
Hold hands
Recharge
Chipotle
Bowl
Bar
Handsome
Beer
Malbec
Salad
Create-a-Willy
annoyed
Black stilettos
Red lingerie
Teal
All the way
push it
Purple
Multi-stimulation
Orgasmic
Football jersey
3:00 AM
6:45 AM
Reverse cowgirl
Oatmeal
Omelette
Captain America
Take a chill pill
Sabres jersey
I am happy
I am sad
I love you
deeper
stronger
majestic redwood
bold
little redwood
Aloha Oe
Until we meet again

Emotional Wave ~ a Random Peek inside My Head

Emotions are very aggressive right now, toiling inside me.  I feel a really strong need to express myself, lest I forget, feelings subside or my courage withdraws back to the confines of my comfort zone.

Deeply, mind boggling love, does it exist?

A love so deep for someone, a desire you feel that is nothing sexual; one that is a purely energetic and magnetic in fulfillment to one’s mind and soul.  This love gives you a heady rush of adrenalin in your mind, cranking out so many thoughts and ideas about life.  The sexual hunger for someone that is even more deep and diverse because the basis for which you feel the hunger is driven solely by how that person’s inner being, their emotional core affects you profoundly.   Do you understand what I’m talking about?  Do you believe in what I'm talking about?  Have you ever felt this?

How does this level of love, connection, bonding occur?  It's a concept I don't understand, yet truly believe exists.  You want to feel so alive.  Your desire to make someone else happy lifts you up so voraciously.  You don’t understand, you can’t explain it, you can only feel it.

The emotional wave is subsiding.  I've guiltlessly given you a random peek inside my head.

 

"...I want somebody who cares for me passionately
With every thought and with every breath..."